Yesterday I had a mini-meltdown. Well, truth is, I’m not sure that you’d even call it a mini-meltdown, but more like an explosion of rage that went off inside me. I was angry, and while I am much better emotionally than I was yesterday, I’m still not where I ‘need’ to be, but I’ll get there.

Yesterday I was actually blind with anger and frustration. Ok, not literally blind in the physical sense, but I felt like a bomb waiting to explode. My heart rate was through the roof, and the elliptical didn’t help, because of certain people not respecting my space. I am definitely going to write about it-but not now, because my bathwater is running and I don’t want to get up on my soapbox and my bathwater run over.

I should have more time tomorrow. Today I did get in an 1 1/2 hour bike ride, and I felt good about it.

As if perfect timing- little things showed up yesterday at just the right moment- a little note from someone i don’t even really know that well that said “Never give up” , and an article in this months O magazine about weight loss being more than watching what you eat- and the mental process. It was encouraging, and I’m going to read it again tomorrow, to let it sink in some more. I know it’s mental- but lately it’s ALL mental for me, and I’m obsessing.

I’ve allowed too many negative factors in my life, and they are growing like wildfire- I will overcome, and I’ll write more about everything tomorrow, but now I’d better run before the water overflows.

For those of you who are stopping in- thank you.