I know it may sound crazy- but I love coming to this site, just so I can look at the layout. I absolutely love, love, love this layout, and am not sure that I can keep it hidden away from the rest of the world. Since I can’t really add wigets to it, I’m not sure if would work on one of my other journals, but it is so ‘me’, more so than the others I am using at my other spaces. We’ll see what happens though- One thing is for sure, I need something different.

Today has been a good day- Marcel and I went for another bike ride, and I did another ‘run’ on the elliptical. I also did a little strength training, but not really enough to write home about. It was something though.

I’ve been feeling a little fluish today, but don’t worry- it isn’t the ‘oink-oink’. I did hesitate on whether I wanted to get on the elliptical, but in the end, I did, because even though it is MY choice, I really do want to see those scales moving in the downward spiral, so I need to make the right choices.

Desere came over tonight for a visit- She called while I was cooking dinner and asked if I had anything going on, and if it would be ok, so she came over for a few hours. It was a good visit- tomorrow morning we’re going to attempt to go to the beach and have lunch at a local beach cafe- not Aloha, because the Queen is coming to Wijk aan Zee (villiage on the sea- name of the town) tomorrow, so we’re pretty sure that it’s going to be too crowded, plus security will be high, and we don’t want to be bothered with all that, so we’re going somewhere else.

I’ve been really emotional lately- I’m not sure why- again, I blame hormones and wonder sometimes if I’m not peri-menapausal- other times I think I’m just crazy.

It’s midnight- and I should have been asleep already, but instead- here I sit pounding out a few words while my bathwater runs. I think that I feel better about everything writing something here daily- even if it’s just a few words about how my day went in terms of exercise and food.

Eating wise- I did well, and I’ve also been doing just as well with my water drinking. I’ve started brewing two tea bags of green tea each evening, and making 1.5 liters of iced green tea from those two bags. I leave it in the fridge overnight, and drink it over the course of the day, along with another 2 or so liters of water. Needless to say, there are moments when I feel as though I’m going to float through the house haha.

The next three days, Marcel is free, so I’m hoping that we’ll be able to get some biking time in. We talked today about packing a picnic and heading off on the bike for several hours. I think that would not only be fun and relaxing, but I can’t help it- I think of almost every activity in terms of how many calories it will burn. Crazy I know. There are days when I feel obsessed, especially lately- but how to find a balance? I don’t know- I may never know.

One thing I do know for sure- is that I will be successful, and WILL reach my goal this year.