I’m not sure why, but I’m feeling anxiety today about losing weight. I had this awful thought, of what if I stay at the same weight I am for the rest of my life? Granted, I know there are worse things, and the fact that I’ve lost as much as I have is a great thing, but I really want the rest of this weight off, and it seems as though I’m just spinning my wheels.

One moment I feel as though I’m dropping weight, and the next I don’t. It sends me into a whirlwind of a gazillion emotions- and truth is, I don’t like it- I don’t like it one bit, but yet when I find myself ‘in that moment’- I can’t seem to stop feeding myself the negative garbage.

There are times when I feel so alone- I know technically that I’m not alone, but I can’t help it. I feel as though no one really ‘gets’ what I feel, what I think, and sometimes- that makes me want to scream!

I try to add more exercise to the mix- and make sure that I eat the right things. Is it enough? Sometimes I don’t think it is.

I hate these kind of struggles. It’s as though there’s a war going on in my mind, and it’s DRIVING ME CRAZYYY!!

I won’t be defeated.
I won’t be defeated.
I won’t be defeated.
I won’t be defeated.
I won’t be defeated.

I won’t. I won’t. I won’t.

I’ve got to figure out something to get past this- emotional roller coaster I’m on these days.

I honestly think the knee issue is not helping matters, but what can I do?

Please Say a Prayer for Me. I need it.